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[02 Apr 2004|01:41pm] |
Does anyone have a code?
I want a new journal.....
let me know PLEASE!!!!!! thanks yall
<3, trina
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[01 Apr 2004|04:14pm] |
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why cant I stop thinking about him?
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[01 Apr 2004|03:38pm] |
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i hurt....
ouch....
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[01 Apr 2004|08:51am] |
so some stuff happened last nite that I dont really want to get into, but I called Court (I didn't think Chris would want to deal with me yesterday)... so, I told Court that if I needed him, I'd call him just so he'd be "around" -- yall know how it is....
well, I get back home and I call court and we're talking and before I can even turn off my away message, Chris is IMing me.... we didn't talk at all yesterday, which honestly killed me.... (btw, I looked way pretty yesterday... I felt really good about myself... it was wonderful to have so my confidence and self-esteem.,... i should do that more often! haha).... well, Chris IMs me and we talk and he basically told me that if anything happened, hed be there (like he always was) and that if I needed him, just to call.... hed be there if I needed someone to pick me up real quick from bad places or to beat the shit hardcore if i needed him to.... (he hasn't been in a good fight in a while -- he needs one)... well, I thought Chris didn't kare anymore, but i was wrong... he still does kare.... he even called when he was coming back from IHOP.... it was weird to hear his ring (Angel Eyes) again... I almost deleted it yesterday -- I'm glad I didnt.... maybe I wont... he needs to have that ring.... his eyes are gorgeous (and if yall know me, you know how I am about eyes).... ahhh.....
But in other news, I'm sick.... and so is a lot of people.... one of my friends has Bronchitis.... ouch!.... others are just sick or something.... I'm getting something and it sucks! I can't get sick!!!!! But o-well.... it'll be good to get to FL -- I'll get rid of anything when I'm out there.....
I can't wait.... except for the fact that Jamie is leaving me alone with Rhys for a nite and then a 14 hour drive.... at least at nite I'll be with Mecca, but still.... I honestly don't know that I can do that... i need to talk to Jamie.... all signs are pointing to her not going (even hers).... she just needs to make that decision.....
well, I'm out.... long day ahead of me.... Tonite's the Schola Concert! (exciting!!) No mom this time tho... i was supposed to go out with Chris and dad and smom, but when we broke up, I sorta felt it wasnt my place to go... I'd still love to go, but I feel out of place, so, I'd only go if he asked me to go again..... o-well....
<3, trina
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[01 Apr 2004|12:09am] |
why is it that I feel like guys know just how to take advantage of me? I always seem to get these guys that are just complete assholes, who kare only about what they want... then one day, this great guy comes along, and I fuck up and lose him.... and then the next ass walks in to my life and thinks that all I'm gonna do is like, fuck him.... if he can get me drunk enough, Ill fuck him.... when were on SB, i will too.... Why does he think this??? I know I'm not sending those signals, so why?!?!? What is it?!?!? God... this sux....
I want what I had back....
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[30 Mar 2004|03:05pm] |
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So, me and Chris are officially over... we're not gonna get back together... but I'm not gonna talk about it... I need to get over him and get on with life...
5 days until Daytona trip!!!! I'm SO excited! I went shopping last nite... it was great -- spent lots of money! haha... but I got a bathing suit and some way kute skirts and tops and lots and lots of stuff.... I'm excited!!! haha... I cant wait now....
I'd like to find this (http://www.macys.com/catalog/product/index.ognc?ID=112749&CategoryID=12511) bathing suit... but i don't want to order it and it not look good and have to deal with returning it that way and blah blah blah... so, I gotta figure something out... but o-well...
I'm just ready to get away from here for a while... I need a break!! haha....
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[29 Mar 2004|04:07am] |
im drunk....
chris is mad....
im drunk....
Rhys is upset....
i'm drunk...
maybe i should stop drinking.....
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[26 Mar 2004|10:06pm] |
Someone save me!!!
from my thoughts
from these children (just think of the money)
from the spiders that lurk in the nite
from the pain that i feel
from the trouble ive put people through
from the wrong I keep doing
sorry
ok, so tonite... as we're brushing teeth (they brush their teeth in the kitchen for some reason), 2 spiders pop out from under the counters. For those of you who don't know, I'm terrified of spiders -- can't even think about them (i dont know how im gonna finish this... I can feel stuff already),... well, since I was little, ive been afraid of them.... and it only gets worse... (last semester I had a nightmare that a spider bit me, i woke up and my hand, where it had bit me, was hurting, i was crying, and i felt like there were spiders all around)... lets just say, it's bad... so these spiders come out tonite... of course, the kids are afraid too... I end up calling mom (laugh all you want, but you honestly dont know how bad it is for me) and she comes over and finds one, kills him, but the other is mia... o-well... as long as i dont see it and dont think about it, its ok
Anyways, I got pics back today -- a lot of me and Chris... puts a smile on my face for all the good times weve had... makes me cry at the same time for the times we aren't... im glad to have memories of those times tho... i never want to forget them.... weve had a lot of fun together... wish there could be more, but whatever happens happens... i cant sit here and dwell... think daytona... hahaha...
o-well... im tired... it's early and all, but these kids are insane! Later babez!
<3, trina
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[26 Mar 2004|08:26pm] |
So, after my wonderful trip to Daytona, I'm going to drive to Dallas to see the rents and actually be home for a few days for Easter and what not... oh crap... that means I need to buy something for Easter mass and brunch... blah...
at least I wont be spending a lot for the hotel -- just clothing for the week and then food and gas.... OH! And I'm going to get my belly button pierced too I think... Ive wanted it for a while now... but i think i might actually do it... yay
well, im out
byez!
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[26 Mar 2004|12:58pm] |
hahaha.... this is hillarious... both the guys going on the trip want to sleep with me.... lol... it's so funny.... im like, yall can both sleep on the floor, Ill take a bed, and Jamie will take a bed... hahaha.... this is funny... gotta love em tho....
I don't know what's going on with Chris right now... Chris, dear, if you read this, fill me in, b/c I'm not gonna wait around if i dont have to... I just need to know and i am officially LOST!
laterz!
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[26 Mar 2004|10:26am] |
So, Im excited!
I'm going to Daytona for Spring Break!!! YAY!!! This is the plan:
April 4th - drive to tally and chill with all my FSU peeps!
April 5th - drive out to daytona
April 8th - Leave Daytona and drive home
I'm SO excited!
I'm hoping one day we'll get a chance to drive down to pompano or something -- I need to see my mec... I miss him....
So far, me and Jamie are going and Courtland might go too... i talked to Rhys about going as well, but b/c of work, he doesn't know if he can... I'm hoping we can find another person, but I found a kickass deal at this kick ass hotel... so, it's all good
Anyways, I've been thinking about this whole Chris thing and it's ritarded for me to be so sad... if we're meant to be together at all, we will... I just have to have the faith in God that I've had for so long and for some reason, I almost gave up and lost track of everything. But, I thought about things last nite, and I came to the realization that things will be ok no matter what happens... He has a plan for me, and that's the plan I should follow...
Well, I'm gonna go and be a "mom" haha.... gotta love babysittnig 4 crazy kids for the weekend!
hahaha.... peace out
<3, trina
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[25 Mar 2004|08:29pm] |
If for some reason you read this this weekend, know how much i care... know how much I miss your arms around me when i sleep... know that i miss your touch, the feel of your lips on mine, the way you smell (even after practice when youre all gross... haha).... know that i luv you more than you know, more than you think, and more than you can imagine... you mean so much to me... you are so much to me.... you are one of VERY few in whom I have trust in, you are one who I can give so much of me to, and you are the reason why i am happy and finally ok with the person that i am... but at nite, or at any time, you find yourself thinking of me, know that i am thinking of you at that exact minute....
remember:
"Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye."
-H. Jackson Brown Jr.
I <3 u
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[23 Mar 2004|05:29pm] |
I'm single: two words
signs: thousands of tears
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[23 Mar 2004|11:56am] |
So, me and Chris got into a fight.... it's not good.... I've been crying... this sux.... he means so much to me.... but of course, im gonna be the one to fuck things up.... I always do.... everything is always my fault...
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[22 Mar 2004|11:30pm] |
::singing:: "cold.... cold.... would you lite my candle?"
brrrrrrr...... OMg.... I'm freezing!!!!
Anyways... interesting weekend... met new people.... drank... chilled with new people.... drank.... slept a bit.... and uh.... theres gotta be more in there somewhere.... i dunno.... o-well
Today was insane! I've been non-stop since 7am.... I finally started to wind down around 10pm or so.... but I have to wake up early tomorrow to work on piano stuff for my piano test tomorrow... I'm not gonna do good....I dont practice ever....
Why am I a music major?!?!?
Grrr.....
well, nite nite......
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[21 Mar 2004|11:29pm] |
im going to FL
May 7th
I miss my Mec... I havent seen him since around April 29th (aka Prom)
i miss him
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[21 Mar 2004|05:48pm] |
5 things you are wearing...
o1. shirt
o2. sweater
o3. sweatshirt
o4. jeans
o5. big long socks (can you tell im freezing?!!?)
5 things you are doing right now...
o1. Answering this thing
o2. HIstory Assignment
o3. Listening to music (Mercy Me right now)
o4. Reading journals
o5. trying not to freeze to death
5 things you ate/drank in the last 24 hours...
o1. Pizza Hut Breadsticks
o2. water
o3. skittles
o4. chips
o5. dip
5 things you did so far today...
o1. slept in a lil with chris <3
o2. Talked to Mecca <3
o3. ate at the union
o4. sat in the library for 4 hours trying to do my project
o5. fight with Courtland
5 things you can hear right now...
o1. music
o2. typing
o3. cars
o4. people
o5. roomie doing something
5 thoughts in your head...
o1. I need to practice
o2. I need to work out
o3. I need to go to FL to see Mecca
o4. I want my belly button pierced
o5. I'm going home on Wednesday
5 things you look for when you're picking a girlfriend/boyfriend...
o1. eyes
o2. can make me laugh... like its hard to
o3. caring
o4. height
o5. personality
5 famous people you'd bang in a second...
o1. Josh Groban
o2. Kevin Richardson
o3. Kenny Chesney
o4. Tim McGraw
o5. Ben Jelen
5 things you miss...
o1. my dog
o2. Having a place that I really felt to be "home"
o3. Old friends
o4. being as happy as I used to be
o5. being the "old" me in general
5 things you love...
o1. my dog
o2. LSU
o3. Chris
o4. Mecca
o5. my dog
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[21 Mar 2004|05:33pm] |
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there are some people in this world I can say I honestly hate
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[21 Mar 2004|04:27pm] |
i hate college and I hate being a music major...
i quit
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